
I
heard back from the committee that selected 6 artists to participate in an artist in residency program and I was not one of those selected. I must say that I'm not too surprised.
For some bizarre reason I keep all my letters of rejection. I have several from institutes of higher education. I have many from juried art shows. One from a national textile arts group.
In this business of making art the rejections FAR outweigh the acceptances. That's just how it is. I am either too far out or not far out enough. I am either overly qualified or not qualified enough. I am either not understood or not at the right place at the right time.
What I am getting better at doing is remembering the countless superb evaluations that come after each and every class I teach at Quilt University. I am also remembering that every sale and satisfied customer and student represents success.
Today, while I am disappointed that I will not have the opportunity to pursue my project with the New Vision for California people, I AM excited that even in the midst of a recession and my husband's own unemployment drama, I am still alive and well and able to continue working at a job I love.
That said, want to see something beautiful? Here is a portion of a five yard run I made for a fashion designer in Australia. It is crepe backed silk satin charmeuse. Sigh. I love dyeing silk. If I keep running after what I love, the rest will come. So what is "the rest"? I suppose it is simply satisfaction in a job well done. Good bottom liner, don't you think?